Shawn and I attend a 3 day retreat with Amma this past weekend. We had planned to ask her to marry us until we realized the cost was not in our budget right now. We decided to put it on hold and were happy to do so as we also felt rushed to make it happen. It would be such a blessing to have Amma marry us but I will be happy to wait and feel better prepared. We will how ever continue with our scheduled wedding date in Vermont in September.
Being with Amma has been a real heart opening experience. We received 3 darshans(blessing in the form of an embrace) and was served a meal by her. The real blessing though was to sing bajans and listen to Amma speak about life and spirituality. What impressed me most about being with Amma this time is I realized how much fun she has. She laughs a lot! Her presents is so sweet and motherly. It also really sunk in just how much she gives. Almost the entire retreat she spent just being with the masses, embracing each and every person. Her hug is like that of strong, sweet grandmother. But she also gives you zap of love that can really open your heart. I am inspired to follow her example and be that sweet and motherly, even though I don't always feel like I can to everyone. I hope to awake more unconditional love for all humans though it can be so difficult.
I also received initiation which can seem a bit strange as if I am joining a cult. But the only thing she asks of you is to see the divine in each person; chant your mantra daily; and receive dashan from her at least once a year. Her message is one of service to our fellow humans, and it is so important in this world right now. All the hatha yoga practice and meditation is for one thing: to better serve the world. I am not sure I am entirely doing this right now but my intentions are there. If I am a little friendlier with everyone, smile a little more than I have begun.
To meditate daily is to take a moment and remember my purpose here. To love and serve. I hope that as a yoga teacher I can be a vehicle for this message. In helping my students relax, learn how to care for their bodies and breath then maybe they will be more present to others they touch. We are each a small part of the whole and our love and nurturing can spread. Maybe you will be inspired by this message. And if you get the chance spend some time with Amma and your heart may overflow as well.
